Sunday, April 29, 2012

8 years

ago tomorrow this was us:






 So fun to see me and my Dad, it was a wonderful day and especially great to have him there.
 I loved my cake and i loved the setting with Timp in the background.
 My mom hates it when people smash the cake into each others faces but I don't, it was super fun!

 So much fun!!  I remember driving away from the reception and telling Quinn that it really had been the most fun day of my entire life.  I wish we could do it all again.  See all our family and friends together and celebrate our love. 
Oh what a joyful occasion.  I don't think either of us knew quite what we were in for but even for all the craziness it has worked out lovely.
We are going to celebrate in style tomorrow.  Quinn has the day off.  We have a sitter for the kids and we are going to go explore the San Felipe springs (also known as the "bean dip".  wonder why? think about it..hint: we are very close to the border).  Do a little floating, a little swimming and hopefully have a carefree and grand old time, just like the old days:)
I love you Quinn!!

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

The kids...

Life lately in pictures.

Lost of love for the little star of the family


 I love these boys faces, and it makes me laugh that Tessa looks like she is so surprised about what she is finding in that egg.

 When Jack went into Tessa's room to see her after her nap he found her standing.  He was so excited, "MOM!!  you have got ot see this!"   So, lots of pics to remember the occasion and then hurry and put the mattress down of the lowest setting.  With all tile floors I don't want to take any chances of that baby girl landing on her head.
She pulls up to stand everywhere. 
Pony tail!!  Another big moment.  So adorable. You can also see the two little teeth in this pic. 


The hair is a little crazy after the ponytail.


And the boys are loving the trampoline, of course.

The End

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Our house is a very very very fine house..

And I have been wanting to show you around. Trouble is, this whole moving in thing is taking awhile. I finally have one room 'done'! So I will share. It is only fitting that the little person with all the attention around here gets to have her room finished first. Here is the little lady herself performing her army crawl toward me to grab the camera.The ugly before pic. The walls were painted a slightly neon green with a lovely 90s sponge motif. It was really gag. The picture really doesn't do the ugliness justice. it was so glaring! Luckily the rest of the house is a nice light tan color.
We did a fresh coat of a creamy, warm, lovely creamish color. So soothing to the eyes.
The paint is the perfect background to for the friendly little woodland scene stickers I got like 8 months ago and have been waiting to use. So cute!
This fitting little ditty hangs over our Tessa baby's bed.
Close up of the bed skirt I finished just today, bravo for me for getting out the sewing machine finally!This is the chair where all the cuddling, nursing, reading and loving happen. I love being here more than any other place in the house (my bed runs a close second...sleep, mmmm)Still missing a curtain panel, dang you Wal mart for not having it in stock! I still need to order it on line. One more thing on the to-do list

Her sweet little bears who keep the dresser warm and make nice companions for the LOVE lamp. Quinn and I joke about her bears of all nationalities: left to right: black, asian, white.I guess I can post a pic of the front of the house since it is 'done' too. I really like the trees and landscaping. I love the inside of the house but the all brown exterior doesn't get me excited. Just a nice solid shell for our happy home:)
Hope there will be more room tours in the near future!

Friday, March 16, 2012

6 years ago today...

I birthed this hansom little fella.Look how far we have come!
The Big 6 year old birthday boy had a great day. Big waffle breakfast, gifts like real cowboy boots/belt, 2 captain america shields (because 1 shield just won't do for 2 boys!), a lego watch, iron man sun glasses, the original star wars trilogy...oh, and a TRAMPOLINE! He was shocked and so excited. I mean, this boy likes to bounce and has been lusting after trampolines for a couple years now. He is one happy camper.

He also had a great birthday party with his new friends (one of which he hadn't met before, the others he had met one or twice). What better way to make friends than having them over for a party?
The whole family had a great time today with this sweet little boy. What a fun and great kid.
The first year he has really contemplated his birthday wish. This birthday stuff gets more serious every year:)
Happy Birthday Jack boy!!

Sunday, March 4, 2012

Home

We are so glad to be home in Del Rio (I didn't think i would ever say that with such gusto!) This trial has sure made me appreciate the little things, like being together at home, checking on Chase in the night, feeding my children good food etc.
In my rush to San Antonio 2 weeks ago I didn't bring my camera so we don't have many images of the ordeal but here are the few from Quinn's phone.
In the clinic in Del Rio waiting for the ambulance.
In the ambulance

During the bad time in the ICU


First time out of bed in a week. Notice how swollen his whole body is?
He looked like the marshmellow man.
All the skin on his fingers and toes is now pealing off in big pieces, the aftermath of being swollen.


Putting on a brave face. I spent as much time lying in his bed with him as possible.


Daddy was with him through the whole ordeal

Notice how swollen his neck is. This is after the whole body swelling went down. The lump in his neck is crepitis: bubbles that formed in the tissues under his skin. He had it all up the left side of his body. They make gurgurling sounds when he coughs and feel like rice krispies to the touch. It gives me the heebie geebies.
Hanging out as a family in the hospital. Being apart was so hard!!!

Getting one of his percussion treatments, basically a tiny jackhammer that bumps up and down on his chest. He hated it so bad, they even did it in the middle of the night. We were so glad to leave the hospital!

For awhile the only time he smiled was when Jack came, there is something about your brother and best friend.


The last day in the hospital we got him to venture out into the little courtyard by the Peds ward. Look how skinny he is! He lost almost 20% of his body weight while in the hospital.
Chase has improved so much just in the 3 days he has been home from the hospital. He is walking further, getting on and off of chairs by himself and sleeping well through the night. He is still very pale, super skinny and weak as a lamb. He has a hard time bending over, stumbles sometimes when he walks and tires very easily. We look forward to his complete recovery.

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Get us out of here!

Needless to say we are so sick of having our little Chase in the hospital! He is pretty down about the whole thing and we are tired of living out of suitcases and moving around every few days.

On Monday morning the Doc said that he was planning to send Chase home on Saturday. He also commented that if Chase didn't have a fever in 24 hours then he would send him home earlier. He kind of just threw it out there because there is pretty much no way he wouldn't have a fever since he has been having them non stop from the beginning.

We have been holding our breath on every temp check. 99.2, 100,4, 98.9, 100.1, 99.6, 99.1....

Guess what? Tuesday evening rolled around and it had been 24 hours without a fever!!! Yeah!

Chase....well, ALL of us are going home tomorrow! We can't wait. Keeping up the prayers that he continues to recover and get healthier.

Hopefully our next post will be of our new house in Del Rio. It is piled high with moving boxes.

Monday, February 27, 2012

Wireless

Chase got his chest tube out yesterday, yeah!! It was a pretty quick and painless procedure. The gave him a shot of morphine and had another on hand just in case. He didn't need it and Quinn was bummed that they wouldn't give the extra morphine to dads.

Chase was also able to come off the monitors for his respratory rate and eeg. 4 days ago he had 7 tubes and wires connecting him at all times: oxygen, O2 saturation, respratory rate, heart rate, blood pressure, chest tube, and IV. Now he is down to 1! No more 'transformer man'.

Chase continues to have spiking fevers that are unexplained. Drs are starting to wonder if they are caused by the antibiotic (somewhat common). He also has a bunch of airbubbles in his tissues around his chest, back and neck on the left side. These are not common and we are really hoping they start to resolve on their own.

Thank you for all your words of encouragement and love!

Saturday, February 25, 2012

Chase

10 days ago we moved to Del Rio. It was a crazy day with moving, packing, cleaning and coordinating. Chase was feeling really sick and just wanted to lay on a blanket on the floor while we got ready. He had been coughing and feeling yucky for a couple of days and I thought that if he wasn't better by the next day (friday) I would have to find out how to take him to the Dr. in Del Rio.
On the drive out of town we stopped at chick-fil-a, one of his favorites and he pepped up enough to eat and play on the play place. On the drive down he threw up and was coughing and crying. Needless to say it was stressful for me, all three kids on a 3 hour drive, throw up etc.
We got to the new house and I put him to bed while we unloaded the rest of our stuff. We grabbed some dinner and Chase was still feeling lousy. I called the nurse hotline. She assured me he would be fine and told me to clear up his breathing with some steam.
By 9-10 pm he was really running a fever and I was starting to worry. I called a friend and found out that there is no urgent care in Del Rio, only the ER (I hate trips to the ER!! I have never spent less than 8 hrs ) We were so exhausted, we just wanted to go to sleep. I called my sister Tracy and talked things over. She thought that he might be fine waiting until morning unless I had that Mother instinct feeling to take him in. I told her we would probably wait. I walked back into Chases room, hear his breathing and his cries and felt the Mother instinct. Quinn jumped into action and picked up Chase who began to scream in pain that his stomach was killing him. They rushed off into the rainy night while i stayed home with the other 2 sleeping kids. I laid down to rest for a few minutes.

I shot awake at 2:45 in a panic. I called Quinn. They had been seen but nothing was happening. I could hear Chase panting in pain in the background and told Quinn he just had to do something. He got them to come and they said that he had bowel blockage, gave him an enima, he pooped a bunch and they released him. When they walked through the door I was way worried. He was still breathing funny, couldn't calm down and was in so much pain. I was up with him most of the night, we were all bleary with exhaustion.

We waited anxiously for the base clinic to open in the morning. Quinn took him in. When they saw Chase they knew something was very wrong. They got him on oxygen and started an IV. The chest xray showed that most of his left lung was whited out with pnumonia. The little hospital in Del Rio wouldn't admit him (the base personnel speculated that their pediatrician was on vacation) and he had to be put on an ambulance up to San Antonio.
I couldn't believe it!! We had just come from San Antonio less than 24 hours earlier. I rushed to back Quinn a bag and get it to him before the ambulance came. I saw Chase as they were loading him into the ambulance, he was white as a sheet, grunting in pain and not breathing normally. I was sick with worry.

The next 24 hours were so wierd. I took Jack and Tessa home to the house full of boxes and tried to give them some normallacy. They were both coughing and sick as well so I wanted to care for them but my mind was on Chase and Quinn. I unpacked boxes in a haze. My mind was so wrapped up in worried thoughts, what-ifs and what-should-I-dos that Jack often had to ask me 2 or 3 times for things he wanted or needed.

Quinn and I were in constant contact. I felt like he just kept giving me more and more bad news. I didn't know it at the time but he was actually giving me the good news. He told me later that he was scared out of his mind. When they got to the hospital all the personnel jumped into action. The room was filled with Drs, people were were ordering tests and getting them immediately. Everything was happening super fast. He watched as a Dr said to a tech, "Get me an xray machine now, not in 5 minutes...NOW!" The tech ran to get it. It was like an episode of ER.
Chase was immediately moved to the ICU. As night turned to day they said that his chest cavity was filling with fluid. There was so much fluid that it was actually displacing his trachea off to the side and pushing his diaphram, stomach and internal organs out of their places. They immediately put in a chest tube and drained off over 3 cups of fluid in just the first 12 hours. That is a crazy lot of fluid to come out of a tiny left chest cavity.

I hurriedly put together some suitcases and started off for San Antonio. Luckily we have an amazing ward in SA who jumped into action, set up a place for us to stay, greeted us with dinner and watched my kids while I went to the hospital. Chase was finally calmed down a little bit and resting fitfully. He had been in writhing, agonizing pain for over 30 hours straight. I stayed with him most of the night and got no rest as every 20 minutes or so he was needing something and every hour or so something new was developing. A new fever, a problem with his stomach, a blown IV, an agonizing IV attempt, blood draws for cultures etc. He was hooked up to a special high powered oxygen. At the worst point he was on 13 liters an hour and 100%. If he had gotten to 15 and 100% they would have had to intubate him and put him on a ventilator.

Every day we hoped that he would turn the corner and start to get better but Sunday turned into Monday, Monday to Tuesday and Wednesday after that. He had a hundred tests, xrays, ultrasounds, CT scans, blood cultures etc. By Thursday he was headed for surgery. The chest tube couldn't get to all the fluid in his chest cavity and what was left behind was 'walling off", essentially becoming abcesses around his lung.

They stopped giving him food and fluid at midnight, hoping that his procedures would start at 6 am. 8 am, nothing, 10 nothing, Noon, starving and thirsty but still a full OR schedule. 2 pm, nothing. Finally at 4 pm he was off for surgery. They had to put him on a ventilator, collapse his left lung, insert a camera and instruments into the chest cavity. Break up the infection, irrigate, suction and insert a new chest tube.

I was home taking care of the other kids. I couldn't leave Tessa for long periods because she is breastfeeding and won't take a bottle. I also didn't want to stress her out or have her miss her naps as she has been sick as well and I didn't want another severely sick child. Next to seeing Chase in pain, the hardest part about this has been not being able to be at the hospital all the time. I got her to bed and rushed to the hospital, my normal routine. I got there just at the surgeon came in to give the report that it had all gone well. She said she was surprised to see just how bad his lung looked on the camera. She would have expected a child with that bad of a lung to look alot worse on the outside.

The OR team wheeled his tiny little body into his room. I have never been so glad to touch and hold one of my children. Almost the first thing he said as he was coming around was "Wheres Jack!?" in a kind of grumpy voice. I will always remember that his first thought was of Jack, they sure have a special bond. Quinn and I laid on the bed next to Chase's and held each other. We had only seen each other in passing as we switched shifts at the hospital and had hardly spent an hour together in a week. We said a prayer of thanksgiving for our sweet Chase boy. The moment didn't last long, he had to head home to Jack, but it was special and made me so thankful to be married to such a wonderful man. Quinn has spent every waking minute with Chase through this ordeal. He literally only came home to sleep. He has been with him comforting, explaining, holding, lifting, reading, feeding, changing diapers and clothes, blessing him with the priesthood and being the best Dad anyone could ever ask for.
The night after surgery was a super rough night. His stomach essentially stopped moving because of all the surgery drugs. He had a huge anount of air trapped in the stomach causing intense pain. He just wantred to sleep but we had to roll him/sit him up every 30 min to try to het the air moving. To no avail, they had to put an NG tube down his throat (or nose? I wasnt there) to let some air escape. It was a terriffing and painful experience. The air moved more to the intestine, causing pain there. Another major complication is that all pain meds slow your gut down except for tylenol. So after major surgery Chase was only being given kid doses of Tylenol, insane.

Chase has been so tough through all this. I couldn't imagine going through what he has gone through. So much pain for such a little person. He has amazed Drs and nurses with his bravery and toughness. After one agonizing IV attempt the nurse commented that she was amazed that no one had to hold him down. She said most kids his age have to be restrained. He is such a good boy and always tries to do what is right. All that said, he is very down. For a while he only communicated the things he absolutely needed to survive, anything more was too hard. He didn't smile for a week. About 6 days into it Quinn told me Chase said, "Dad, you know you can ride on sharks." It was the first time his personality started to show through again.

Chase is now back in the regular pediatric unit. He still has a long road ahead. The dr said his lung is like a broken leg, it will prob take 6 weeks to heal and then additional time after that to become normal again. We don't know when we will go home. Chase continues to be in alot of pain from his stomach, which is irritated and swollen, and the chest tube.

Please pray for our Sweet Chase Boy. My family is holding a fast tomorrow if you would like to join your faith with ours please do.

I will try to keep the updates coming. This is the first time I have sat down at a computer in 11 days. I also want to say a huge Thank You to all the people who have helped us. We have had so much support. People are so wonderful, I am continually amazed by the christlike caring of others. I am so thankful for our little family and grateful we are sealed together. I am so thankful for the power of the priesthood, the comfort of the Holy Ghost and the power of prayer.

Monday, January 30, 2012

Remember the Alamo!

The Alamo is the number one most visited place in all of Texas!
So we visited it while Grandpa was here for the monster truck show.
(It was a boys only event so there are no pics of it. )
"Remember the Alamo!"
I remember the Alamo from when we visited it in 2005. I remember it being a very boring place to visit. Basically an old empty building. It is still an old and mostly empty building.

Why is "Remember the Alamo!" the famous saying? Not because it was a stunning victory but because it was a stunning defeat, everyone died. How sad. All the Alamo boys stood their ground against the mexicans and were slaughtered. "Remember the Alamo" became the battle cry for the men who eventually defeated Mexico and took back Texas. Today's equivalent would be yelling "remember 9/11" before running into battle in Afghanistan.
It is also sad to be in jail as you see.


In other news, I read Jack 100 books and he wrote all the titles on his chain. The reading the books was easy, getting him to write them all down was the hard part.

Tessa continues to be the center of attention and the most lovely baby in the world.
I finally caught her lip-tucked-in pose on camera. She does it all the time but it is very elusive when being hunted for posterity.

The boys are still boys...
biker boys.
And funny boys.
We are getting ready to move again. San Antonio has been very good to us and we hate to go. In primary they sang good-bye to us. (we team teach the 8 year olds) and the primary pres was telling the children that we were moving to Del Rio "but they will still be in Texas." Phew! good thing she didn't alarm the children. Texans can't imagine the horror of moving out of Texas!

Del Rio, here we come...